Saturday, December 5, 2015
The LORD is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
It was just before Thanksgiving 2010 that my wife Kimberley was told something was not right with her breast exam. After further examination it was determined that she had breast cancer. This was a total shock for Kim and me and one of her biggest fears, as her mother had died of breast cancer. Kim ultimately had surgery in January, the surgery went well, and it looked promising, but still scary. While following up with radiation, she was having tests to decide whether to have chemo.
Just after Kim’s surgery I had a physical and my PSA score was up so I was sent to an urologist; a biopsy determined that I had prostate cancer. Wow! This was a difficult thing to grasp, especially coming on top of Kim’s cancer. After a lot of reading and lots of doctor appointments, it was decided to take my prostate out.
Looking back, from the beginning of Kim’s diagnosis to my surgery, everything went well. However, it was not so easy at the time: during the entire experience, my emotional and mental states were a mess. I was totally stressed out and got to the point in the process where I really could not deal with it all. As for my spiritual state, I prayed a lot and had quiet time, but I cried a lot too. I got to the point that I just could not handle it so I gave it to all to God. I basically said “God, I can’t handle this. I give it to you.” By doing that, I had a sense of peace. Yes, it still hurt. Yes, I still felt stress. Yes, I still cried a lot, but it was different, for I had given up and given it to God. Now what ever happened was in God’s hands so I could let go and do what I needed to do. I could function a lot better in this situation with God in charge of the outcome. That’s how I dealt with it then, and to this day I know that without having God in my corner, I would have just broken down. Who knows what would have happened without God’s strength!
Prayer: Father, Thank you for being there and being our Rock in times of need. Let us learn to rely on you at all times, not just in difficult times such as these. Amen.