Wednesday, December 9, 2015
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
In the past I have been guilty of getting lost in the big picture and trying to control every moment. I am a take charge, get-it-done gal and the unknown did not fit nicely into what I was constantly striving for: a perfectly packaged life. I would often wish for that magic crystal ball to tell me how everything was going to work out. I can attest that this crystal ball is not on the market – I have checked every store and website.
Kicking off 2015, I threw up my hands and tried life a different way. My way was not working and I was ready to kick that perfect package I was striving for to the curb. My 2015 goal has been to live each moment, to not rush ahead. I have strived to stop worrying and truly try the Give it to God plan. Not just saying it, but really doing it. The new tactic has given me a gift: I can see God’s hand in my day-to-day life. My life seems slower, but fuller, in relationships and in the Lord’s presence. I have been consciously keeping track of all those little day-to-day items that I let go and how they have turned out, as well as those great big worries that I could not carry if I tried. (My way of keeping my hand in things and a little control on the back end.)
Looking back, I can honestly say that everything I gave over to God did work out. However, not one thing worked out as I expected. Most worked out in an amazing way: I swear God has a sense of humor and needed to put me into my control-loving place – usually when I was only kinda/sorta giving it to God. Sometimes I wanted to stomp my feet and shout for a recount. Once I simmered down, I would be humbled at the outcome God chose. Not something I could have come up with, but God’s awesome plan was pretty miraculous.
Simple but powerful, faith has helped me to have a stronger belief in what I cannot see. Giving in to God has taken a huge burden off me to try to do it all myself. My heart is lighter and my brain less cluttered! I do not feel everything is on my shoulders, but rather God at my side. My plan is to keep this same New Year’s resolution for 2016. I cannot wait to see (and keep track of) all the plans God has for me.
Prayer: Father God, Thank you for always being beside me, surrounding me with your grace, and giving me strength and courage to face life day to day. I am in awe of your plan for me. Amen.